So the number 4 creeps into my life once again with it's tail between it's legs. During the time of Trey's short life, the number 4 resonated, from his time of birth to his time of passing. Everything was connected to the number 4. My lucky number has always been 5 but 4 trumped it in the depths of our grief.This year, Trey would have been 4 and this year he had hi 4th Angelversary. At this point we are a family of 4, John and I and our 2 children. Months ago I decided that I wanted to try for another ba... read more »
I have always been a numbers person. Some time ago I wrote a post about the number connections surrounding our journey. Before we lost Trey, my favorite number was five, although I always eat candies in 2's. The volume of ANY electrical device HAS to be a multiple of 5. Tips at restaurants are given based on multiples of 5. I have always wanted three children, a family of five. At the time of my pregnancy, we had 4 animal children and were expecting or human child, 5 kids in all. The warmth and connectio... read more »
While pregnant, a woman is urged to eat for two, especially by friends and family. But no one is aware of the negative effects of that over eating or they choose to ignore it. The extra weight during pregnancy can lead to diseases like hypertension, gestational diabetes, kidney or respiratory problems. And the giving birth may become problematic if the mother is overweight. The baby can come into the world with congenital malformations or be too heavy, so birth must occur by cesarean, which involves ... read more »
I was once told that since I have conceived a child, it would be easier in subsequent tries. I had such anxiety about my infertility when trying to get pregnant the first time. After we lost Trey, I worried that my chance to have children was lost. My husband and I were eager to try again, yet petrified of going through child loss again.
Getting pregnant with Lorelei took less time but still filled me with anxiety again. At this point I had lost a child and had two chemical pregnancies that my husband ... read more »
During the last full week of school with my first grade students I was reading The Velveteen Rabbit which depicts the "life" of a briefly unloved stuffed rabbit who soon became a little boy's favorite toy. Upon meeting "Real" rabbits, he learned that he was not "real" and would never live like they did. Saddened he talked to the old rocking horse in the nursery who explained to him that he could INDEED become real by way of the magic the love the little boy gave him which would make him "Real". The boy b... read more »